& I don't wanna let go.

To let go isn't to forget,
not think about or ignore.
it doesn't leave feelings of
anger,
jealousy,
or regret.
Letting go is winning.
It isn't losing.
It's not about pride,
its not obsessing or dwelling on the past.
It isn't about loss
& its not defeat.
To let go is to cherish memories but,
to overcome them & move on.
Letting go is accepting.
Letting go is having the courage to accept change,
the strength to keep moving.
Letting go is growing up.

Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears.

Faking smiles and holding back tears
is second nature, but pain adds up.


Shine & Cystal came over today,






camwhored and talked alot :)

I may not be blogging for awhile.
Wish me good luck tmr !
Love ya'all ! ♥

You were never supposed to mean this much to me.

I'm so sorry, I didn't know !
You'll be my hao peng you , forever and ever .
Thanks for always being there for me & standing by me whenever I need someone.


Met up with Belle to go to church together.
- We took the wrong bus ! !@#$%^&*()
After church, cabbed to J8.
Lunched @ Sakae Sushi :D

Shopped around and, got myself a hellokitty webcam !

Came home & webcamed with Belle after that.

Going to meet Crystal & Timothy @ Srgn now :)

Ciao !


P/s My lappie has been very laggy lately, wonder what's wrong.

For once,I wanna be the car crash,not always just the traffic jam.

People change.
Even the person you thought you knew the most changes.
& even though it hurts to see them go, you have to move on,
for the sweet memories are all you have,
& things might never be the same.

Now my heart is like an open door.

I change my mind about being happy.
I'am so so so NOT happy okay :(

I didn't sleep for the entire day !

Morning,
Mummy & I headed to AMK to get our hair done.

I had my hair dyed black.

& my fringe cut.
(It's much shorter then in the photo, because I got in cut twice again after taking this photo)

I look so horrendous now.
When I looked up & saw the mirror I actually cried okay.
Imagine how ugly it is until I can actually cry over my hair.

Furthermore, I had to make my I/C today.
That made my day worst.
I am going to be stuck with this photo for the rest of my life ,
or should I say until I'm 30 years old.
(Because you have to change your I/c photo when you turn 30)

Nevermind !

Even worst,
Mum went to buy dinner for the family, so I came home first.
& when my younger brother opened the door,
he actually looked at me for about 5 secs ? and exclaimed 'WAH'

I had a very very bad day.

If your wildest dream came true, would I be in it?

The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. It takes up a lot of your time.
What do you get at the end of it? A death.
What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle should be all backwards.
You should die first, get it out of the way.
Then you live in an old age home.
You get kicked out when you're too young,
you get a gold watch, you go to work.
You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement.
You drink, you party, you get ready for high school.
You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities,
you become a little baby, you go back into the womb,
you spend your last nine months floating , then you finish off as an orgasm.





I had a very bad day.

& afterall, it just shows how much I mean to you.

Sometimes you have to put your hopes in a safe place and come back to them another day.

Lunched @ Suki Sakura to celebrate my little brother's birthday.

After that , went to a pet shop to get stuff for chocolate.

We saw these winter hamsters there, cute aren't they?
I seriously miss having a hamster.
Used to love them in my younger days.
But, now it's a no-no.
Cause the last hamster I had got eaten up by a dog, sad.

Went to shop for shoes.

How I wish they had these shoes/slippers in my sizeeeee :(
So anyway, bought ... a pair of pumps.

and, took a cab home.

&&&&

Cut cakeeeeeeeeee ! :D

Being crazy isn't showing off.
It's having fun without caring what anyone thinks.

You're the single-most important being to ever grace my existence ♥

E

Shine stayed over yesterday. We had loads of fun at my place.
Everytime she's around , she never fails to make me smile :)


Sent her home at 9 & headed down to Kendre's place.

Slack downstairs her block and, waited for jason & friend to arrive.
Went to Kbox. Xiao Ming & gf came as well.

Kendre came over to my place.

Hogan , Wen Thong & Zi Kai came over as well.
They left at around 3PM or so.

It's 7:50PM now & I just woke up !
Me & Kendre are both having a fever now and both our mouths are swollen ! :(



Crush On You.

If I had a dollar bill for every time I've been wrong I'd be a self-made millionaire, and you'd still be gone.

15

Yesterday night was hectic.
Was a last minute decision to meet Hwei Ping, Shu Ling & Wei Ting.
Cabbed to Tanjong Pajar to pick them, then to BP to get some stuff & off to Shu Ling's place.

Woke up in the morning, and found Shu Ling in the living room.
We didn't know how she got there either :O

Shu Ling & Wei Ting left for work & Me & Hwei Ping went home.
On the cab, Hwei Ping found out that her wallet wasn't on her. Panicked.
So her mum came down to pay the cab fare.


Reached home,
P with Kendre just now.

The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.

Happy birthday Andy :)


Hellokitty sushi.



After Kendre & Tou left my house ytd, cabbed down to Srgn to meet Crystal.
Met her for arnd 5-10 mins , then cabbed down to Thompson Plaza
as I had a dental appointment. Got a tooth extracted, arh.

Bought some stuff from Popular & cabbed home.
Was supposed to meet Kendre & co , but I fell asleep.

I have a toothache, & it hurts alot.



Ah, why is so many people's birthday on the 26th November !

You left a stain on everyone of my good days.

& if i don't make it,
know that i've loved you all along.
just like sunny days that we ignorebecause we're all dumb and jaded.

Theres nothing scarier then getting what you want,because now there's always something to lose

So point the gun to my head,
Cause i won't be scared .
Cause i'm praying to God that
you'll pull the trigger.

Let's set the record straight. No one makes me smile quite like you do.

Even when the sun forgets to shine,
I'll be there to hold you through the night.& Even when we're miles apart,
You're the only one who holds my heart.

If I woke up next to you.

Nothing is forever, forever is a lie,
all we have is the time from hello to goodbye
you do what you gotta do, know what you know,
hang on until you can't anymore, & then learn to let go