& I don't wanna let go.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007
To let go isn't to forget,
not think about or ignore.
it doesn't leave feelings of
or regret.
Letting go is winning.
It isn't losing.
It's not about pride,
its not obsessing or dwelling on the past.
It isn't about loss
& its not defeat.
To let go is to cherish memories but,
to overcome them & move on.
Letting go is accepting.
Letting go is having the courage to accept change,
the strength to keep moving.
Letting go is growing up.

Sometimes our vision clears only after
our eyes are washed away with tears.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Faking smiles and holding back tears
is second nature, but pain adds up.

Shine & Cystal came over today,

camwhored and talked alot :)

I may not be blogging for awhile.
Wish me good luck tmr !
Love ya'all !

You were never supposed to mean
this much to me.

Monday, December 10, 2007
I'm so sorry, I didn't know !
You'll be my hao peng you , forever and ever .
Thanks for always being there for me & standing by me whenever I need someone.

Met up with Belle to go to church together.
- We took the wrong bus ! !@#$%^&*()
After church, cabbed to J8.
Lunched @ Sakae Sushi :D

Shopped around and, got myself a hellokitty webcam !

Came home & webcamed with Belle after that.

Going to meet Crystal & Timothy @ Srgn now :)

Ciao !

P/s My lappie has been very laggy lately, wonder what's wrong.

For once,
I wanna be the car crash,
not always just the traffic jam.

Saturday, December 8, 2007

People change.
Even the person you thought you knew the most changes.
& even though it hurts to see them go, you have to move on,
for the sweet memories are all you have,
& things might never be the same.

It's hard to stand on your own two feet,
when the world is determined to knock you down.

Friday, December 7, 2007
Finally, after two days.
, Ilene, Hogan & Tian Shun came over to my place.
I missed them alot.

I love it when they're around, they really brighten up my day.
Always full of laughter whenever they're around.

Hogan & Tian Shun up @ 830 then they left for Tanjong Pajar.
After the both of them left, woke Ilene up and cabbed to Gf's place.
Talked to gf and her grandmother about her childhood.
She also showed us pictures of gf when she was younger.
(I didn't know gf was soooo cute then )

Went to compass point with gf & her grandmum.
Walked around for awhile, then back to gf's place.
Met up with Ilene again then the both of them accompanied me to hail a cab.

Home after that, and went to sleep.

P/s I think Hogan looks quite shuai in his I/c photo lor ! :/ Zomgsxzssxz.

Valen msged me this.
'I meet you on the 10th can?
den you lend me all your clothes in case you go in,
i can help you wear..
haas xD
on e 11th you gotta msg me if nth happens..'

Lend you all my clothes in case I go in?
Wtf do you mean by that.
3 years sistership? Yeah, right.
All you think off are my clothes, when I'm actually going to go in.
Maybe this sistership isn't as strong as I thought it was.

I'm very dissapointed in you.

Now my heart is like an open door.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007
I change my mind about being happy.
I'am so so so NOT happy okay :(

I didn't sleep for the entire day !

Mummy & I headed to AMK to get our hair done.

I had my hair dyed black.

& my fringe cut.
(It's much shorter then in the photo, because I got in cut twice again after taking this photo)

I look so horrendous now.
When I looked up & saw the mirror I actually cried okay.
Imagine how ugly it is until I can actually cry over my hair.

Furthermore, I had to make my I/C today.
That made my day worst.
I am going to be stuck with this photo for the rest of my life ,
or should I say until I'm 30 years old.
(Because you have to change your I/c photo when you turn 30)

Nevermind !

Even worst,
Mum went to buy dinner for the family, so I came home first.
& when my younger brother opened the door,
he actually looked at me for about 5 secs ? and exclaimed 'WAH'

I had a very very bad day.

If your wildest dream came true,
would I be in it?

Sunday, December 2, 2007
The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. It takes up a lot of your time.
What do you get at the end of it? A death.
What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle should be all backwards.
You should die first, get it out of the way.
Then you live in an old age home.
You get kicked out when you're too young,
you get a gold watch, you go to work.
You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement.
You drink, you party, you get ready for high school.
You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities,
you become a little baby, you go back into the womb,
you spend your last nine months floating , then you finish off as an orgasm.

I had a very bad day.

& afterall, it just shows how much I mean to you.

Sometimes you have to put your hopes in a safe place
and come back to them another day.

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Lunched @ Suki Sakura to celebrate my little brother's birthday.

After that , went to a pet shop to get stuff for chocolate.

We saw these winter hamsters there, cute aren't they?
I seriously miss having a hamster.
Used to love them in my younger days.
But, now it's a
Cause the last hamster I had got eaten up by a dog, sad.

Went to shop for shoes.

How I wish they had these shoes/slippers in my sizeeeee :(
So anyway, bought ... a pair of pumps.

and, took a cab home.


Cut cakeeeeeeeeee ! :D

Being crazy isn't showing off.
It's having fun without caring what anyone thinks.

Secretly, we wish anyone we love
will think exactly the same way we do.

Sunday, November 25, 2007
Kendre camped with me for 3 nights, at my place.
Thanks, darling.

Down to Joelyn's place @ Chengam yesterday.
Met up with Xin Yu & Co .
I was hungry , so we walked over to Gelangang for prata.

Ordered Ice Cream, Strawberry & Egg prata.

Couldn't finish it , I think we ordered to much :(

Winnie's friends came & sent us back to my place.
R1 & Hiya Pusa !

Hogan , Dickson , Wen Thong & Tian Shun came over.
I was suuuuuuuuper bored.

Wan Ying came over, & Kendre left.

Played Tai di with the guys.
& went to sleep.

Overslept, didn't go for dance lessons.

P/s I added pictures to 19 November's post :D

Friends play an important role in life

Saturday, November 24, 2007
Now the sky is turning blue,
the stars disappear one by one as the daylight is nearer.
& yes, you're in my head,
but that doesn't make you here.
& I've lost all my friends,
but you're the one I miss the most.

So, after hearing so much about NuffNang ,
I finally decided on getting an account.

But, guess what ?

I think it's because my email has a dash at the end,
causing me to be unable to sign up for alot of things, not only NuffNang.

Can somebody please tell me what to do ?
I don't wanna change email address, it's so troublesome.

Baked Chocolate Brownie with Kendre @ 4AM in the morning
because, we had nothing to do :/
Halfway while mixing the ingredients together,
I realised that there wasn't anymore eggs.
Kendre accompanied me to the nearest 7eleven to get eggs.

Bloghopped around with her & we forgot all about the brownies.
When she went to the toilet, both of us smelt something burning.. it was the brownies !
The top part of it was burnt. But luckily, the bottom still tasted alright (:
Had a fun time eating the brownies with her & played a 'messaging game'. LOL.
She was messaging with, Hogan. & me, Gabriel. Ha !

Caught the movie 1408 with her & I fell asleep halfway :/ Sorry !

Jingwen's friendster profile !

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha :D

P/s Me & Kend are crazy over this song !

Very pissed off about something, shall blog about it tmr !