All that I got to pull me through are memories of you.

Sunday, September 30, 2007
Happy Birthday Sunshine ! :D
Happy Birthday Melvin !

Yong wei came to fetch me , met Shalyn , Jeremy & Baby at Serangoon.
Shalyn went off & we went down to Boat Quay. Met up with Guo wei & the rest.

Went to Amber, drank alot ! I kept on "da" everyone, gei kiang luhs :/
Wasn't in a very good mood. So , yeah.

After that , went down to keong saik's Music Valley to drink again T.T

Guo Wei was damn sweet.
Haha, he kept running to 7eleven to help me buy lollipops ;D
& got all of the the exact flavor that I wanted. Yay.
When my lollipops kept finishing he went to 7eleven and bought ALL their strawberry lollipops. LOL.
Now, I have an unlimited supply of lollipops. Haha !

Went back to Boat Quay for awhile to look for Andy cause I wanted to talk to him,
then down to East Coast to slack ! :D

There's something i have have have have have to announce !
Baby & Jeremy are together ! Like, finally ! ;D;D

& If I told you I was in love,
would you be jealous?

Saturday, September 29, 2007
I waited about one and a half hours for a taxi to go to babyxinyi's house. Many people were snatching cabs , so pissed off :( So in the end , I got Yong wei to come && fetch me. Jeremy went to fetch baby & we met up at Serangoon. Went to alot of places. From Serangoon, to Kallang Bahru, to Geylang, to Marina South, to Changi, then back to Geylang, then to Bishan. Also, went back to Serangoon to slack for awhile then Yong wei sent me home. Heh.

Went to Old Changi Hospital, scared the shit outta me :(
Saw Robin, Abk, && a few others there.

& it hurts like hell to know that
no matter how much i love you

you will never feel the same way

Cause baby, I'm not alright when you go

Friday, September 28, 2007
And, when I think about what happened,
my heart slows,
then stops beating altogether,

and sits in my chest
like a clenched fist.

Because for me, it's always been you. Always.

Thursday, September 27, 2007
I'm done with ex-boyfriends and all the shit that has gone on with mine.
Yeah, I love him as a person && I respect him for who he is & what not.
But how my friends treat him is not something I need to deal with.
So, they don't like him for what happened between us...
that is between him and them...
& I shouldn't get bitched at for shit that I didn't do.
God, I hope he's ok.
Not like we'll ever be friends...
& i'm accepting that.
You might just think of me as some girl but,
I'm that one girl that took one single look at you
& fell harder than I have ever fallen in my whole entire life.
Boy, when you start to miss me,
REMEMBER,
you're the one who let me go.

I believe life is a gift & I don't intend on wasting it.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007



Do you ever wonder what your life;
looks like through someone else's eyes?

Why is it that no matter how much pain it endures by holding on ,
the heart still refuses to let go.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Just came back from the hospital from visiting, Crystal.
She said I changed alot since she went into the hostel, in a good way though (:
I'm happy but I can't help wondering , have I really changed?
in what way have I changed to become better?
I don't know. Doesn't seem that I've changed though , sigh*



I'm currently in low spirits :(




-Kiss on the stomach: I'm ready.
-Kiss on the Forehead: I hope we're together forever.
-Kiss on the Ear: You're my everything.
-Kiss on the Cheek: We're friends.
-Kiss on the Hand: I adore you.
-Kiss on the Neck: We belong together.
-Kiss on the Shoulder: I want you.
-Kiss on the Lips: I love you.
_______________________________________

-Holding Hand: We definitely like each other.
-Slap on the butt: That's mine.
-Holding on tight: I don't want to let go.
-Looking into each other's Eyes: I just plain like you.
-Playing with Hair: Tell me you love me.
-Arms around the Waist: I like you too much to let go.
-Laughing while Kissing: I am completely comfortable with you.
_______________________________________

Advice;
Don't ask for a kiss, take one.
If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in love.

Without those blonde memories, life would be so dull.

Monday, September 24, 2007
I think of how we used to be,
the two of us,
you and me.
where did it all go wrong?
where ever you are,
its alright.
come stay with me tonight.

If you believe something is meant to be,
give it time && let it happen.



Have been slacking around Ang Mo Kio these few days, saw alot of familar faces.
Really glad to see them getting on well (:

I'm finding out that maybe I was wrong,
that I've fallen down
& I can't do this alone.

They came over to my place.
Slacked & talked. Slept at 2pm @_o




My temper has been getting from bad to worst lately, wonder what has got into me :(

It all comes down to that last person
you think about before you fall asleep.

Friday, September 21, 2007
Shopped at Junction 8 with Annabelle ! :D
Then , she came over to my place .
Anyway , Jeremy called & asked me if I wanted to go to Boat Quay.
How nice, I have a sorethroat & fever.
But well, still decided to go :D
Cabbed down to Krugers to meet Valen before heading down to Boat Quay. After that, we headed to Tampines to pick Derrick up then went down to Pasir ris park to slack ! Also , met up with with with another guy ! (Didn't catch his name though)
Walked to Downtown East to have our , erm , breakfast ?
Slacked awhile & sent Derrick & Valen home ! :)

150,
Lately ,
every where I go ,
every song I hear ,

reminds me of you.

Every now & then, I stop to wonder what you're doing, where you're going.
I miss you ... so much.

I know I say I'm just fine.
But I hope you wonder, from time to time.

Thursday, September 20, 2007




I HAVE A SORETHROAT :(
I finally had the chance to sing with Jeff today at work ! :) Yay .
Sooooooo, Steven is still being a pain in my ass && work is still fun fun fun :D
Well, maybe except the drinking part.

Fine , I'll admit it.
I think of you every second of every day,
you are my favorite subject to talk about.
When i hug you i wish i was allowed to never
let you go.
Most of my dreams have you in them.
I always get excited when i get to see you again.
& I think I've completely and totally, fallen for you.

Words can never explain
what cameras fail to capture.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007
I don't care what other people say.
I'm going to love you, anyway.
Come to me again in the cold, cold night.

Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse
when you finally feel it.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Don't judge me tomorrow,
by the way I'm acting today.

You're not even mine anymore
& I'm scared to lose you.

Thursday, September 13, 2007
Today alot of customers order Martell.
Good & Bad at the same time.
Martell got high comission ! ;D
Bad thing is that I'd have to drink it too -.- (Well, only if they ask me to lah)
Hwei Ping asked me to drink for her today ! Martell..
Steven asked me to drink again too .. Martell AGAIN, somemore plus beer.
Super high lah.
To those who know me well enough , or have seen me drink will obviously know that I'm not a very good drinker / suck at drinking .


After work, Uncle Kumar came to fetch me.
I kept vomitting lur >:( Omgomgomg. So paiseh :/


I've been losing sleep because I'm sick of
dreaming about you !@#$%^&

When your heart gets broken,
you tend to see cracks in everything else.

Yawns ! I'm so sleepy & My head aches & I have a sorethroat .
I vomitted out blood yesterday . Yuck , gross :(


Boy: "Daddy? How did I come into this world?"

Dad: "Well, my child, some day I'll have to tell you any way."

Boy: "So why not today? Please!"

Dad: "OK, but listen carefully."

"Mum and Dad met each other in a cyber cafe. In the restrooms of that cyber cafe, dad connected to mom. Mum at that time made some downloads from dad's memory stick. When dad finished uploading we discovered we used no firewall. Since it was too late to cancel or delete, nine months later we ended up with a virus."


I don't know what has got into me lately.
blahblahblah.

I get jealous over the slightest things.
That's just me.

I wish I had that clever line.
The one that begs you to hang on.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Today worked until 1 then Hwei Ping had to send me home -.-'''

First thing when I got to work , Steven kept asking me to drink. Argh*
Hwei Ping helped me drink like, half a cup though, ahaha. Thanks girl (:

Then there was this customer, kept asking to me drink & drink :(
I must train train train my 'jiu liang' ! hohos ! #


I've been missing you !
[/Edited]

You don't need to be together
to get your heart broken

I know it's not realistic.
It's not even practical.
It doesn't make any sense.
But for some reason, I just can't stop thinking about you.

It's only one & I'm awake already , blame the ass who just called me .

Kailee accompanied me to work yesterday night ;D
Walked over to Boat Quay after work , we talked about alot & i really mean ALOT of 'xin shi'
Kailee damn cute , we were walking around boat quay looking for a friend & she saw Melvin.
She was like "Jie ! you look at the person ! Very familiar leh ! Er.. Isit... THAT PERSON ANOT ! "
LOL ! ` xDD


[/EDITED]

I gave you everything I had ,
until I had nothing left..

Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Yesterday night , went drinking with Ah bee & his girlfriend.
& I kept laughing & tearing . LOL / Came home quite early .
Washed up , mapled.
That that that person was online then I logged into another account then KY ask me disiao him. Lols. In the end I kena scolded -.-'' Nvm lah , he is a small gas ghost :X

My head still feels heavy :(

Crystal is attending court today , sigh *
Hopefully , they'll lighten her sentence.

So bottle up old love, throw it out to sea.
Smack it out of your life, like and annoying bumble bee.

Sunday, September 9, 2007
Whats meant to be mine will be mine,
Whats not meant to be mine will never be mine.

Angel & I got left behind at geylang lorong 18. It was terrible.
We didn't even know where we were and we had to go around asking.
Hell ! & There were some 'tikohs' who came up to ask, asking "how much?"
I was so terrified I nearly pee-ed in my pants.

After calling and calling & begging many people to come to our rescue , siaokia came.
-At least now I know who I CAN rely on & who I CANT.

Super embarrasing , we were running around screaming & there were super alot of bangalas ! :X

Then he brought us to this brothel thingy place ,
& we had to sit inside the car (in case people thought we were working -.-) for what seemed like forever.
& finally , he got one of his friends to send us home :D

People even warned me you were a heartbreaker.
& for some stupid reason
i thought i would be your one exception.



AT SOME POINT, LOVE DOESN'T MAKE A RELATIONSHIP WORK -

The hottest love , has the coldest end

Friday, September 7, 2007
I need to feel your warm body on me
when the sun goes down
& the shadows grow.
Just trust in us & forever.
Please keep holding on to me

You're the one , I'd drop everything for .
Would you do the same ?

Thursday, September 6, 2007

26 Things a Perfect Guy would do {:

1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.
2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.
3. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence.
4. Give you the remote control during the game.
5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you.
6. Play with your hair.
7. His hands always find yours.
8. Be cute when he really wants something.
9. Offer you plenty of massages.
10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.
11. Never run out of love.
12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.
13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.
14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.
15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.
16. Smile a lot.
17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally like to do, just because he knows it means a lot to you.
18. Appreciate you.
19. Help others out.
20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.
21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each others company, even when his friends are watching.
22. Sing, even if he can't.
23. Have a creative sense of humor.
24. Stare at you.
25. Call for no reason.
26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs - just because he loves u that much to quit it.

Everything is alright,
when I'm with you

Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Went to Jayden's house yesterday . Quite fun ! But they kept di siao - inq me ! :(
Came home around 6 plus , cause melvin came . Hahas .

Now qq srqn ! :D

Your lips are like vodka &
i wanna get drunk

Tuesday, September 4, 2007
THURSDAY ! THURSDAY ! :D

So lets dance under the stars
kiss in the pouring rain
cuddle at the movies
& stay together forever