I wanted you.

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cause we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I... I'm so sorry baby
But I, I... I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
... to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

Don't go when I push you away.It's times like that when I need you the most.

Defended, battled & fought.

Obstacles are put in our way to see if what we want is really worth fighting for.

When the world says, "Give up,"
Hope whispers, "Try one more time."

It's a lot easier to say you're mad than admit that you're hurt.

Happy fifth month, baby ♥
& Happy birthday Lee Ching !

Finally, I'm out on homeleave again ! *Big wide smile*
My weekend's totally packed with birthday celebrations & dates.

2 more weeks to me & Cecilia's birthday celebration, I can't wait.
It's gonna be fun, I hope.

The easiest way to get hurt, is not to care.But that's the hardest thing to do.

I'm finally gonna turn sixteen, so excited !
I wonder if Shine still remembers the promise she made to me last year ?

2 more days to Lee Ching's birthday.
3 more days to Louisure's birthday.
6 more days to Ah Song's birthday.
7 more days to Dave's birthday.
9 more days to Buddy's birthday.
11 more days to Chloe's birthday.
18 more days to Baby's birthday.
20 more days to Feng Ying & Yann Bin's birthday.
21 more days to Angeline, Cecilia, Ice, Ivan, Peggy & Li Guang's birthday.
25 more days to Alex's birthday.

Have I missed out anyone? ._.

"不假是假的"

When I look in the mirror all I seeis a complete failure looking back at me.

Finally, a meetup with the girlies yesterday.
Non-stop laughters, definetely made my day.

I guess yesterday was random day ?
Everyone was being so random.

Went back to some old places we used to hang around at.
So many memories brought back,
I wish I could go back to those old days.

Played dressup with the girlies thereafter.
& techno-ed a lil while before leaving.

I want more of these days !

♥

虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔

我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃 虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂 虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔

请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃 虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂 虽然我愿意

心碎人孤寂 虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃 虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂 虽然我愿意

心还想着你

Here's to the starry nights and careless freedom, to glowing smiles and flushed cheeks, and laughter that heals you deep inside.

To those who have pushed me, thank you.
Without you, I wouldn't have fallen.

To those who have laughed at me, thank you.
Without you, I wouldn't have cried.

To those who just couldn't love me, thank you.
Without you, I wouldn't have known real love.

To those of you who hurt my feelings, thank you.
Without you, I wouldn't have felt them.

To those of you who left me lonely, thank you.
Without you, I wouldn't have discovered myself.

But, to those who thought I couldn't do it,
it is to you I thank the most
because without you,
I wouldn't have tried.

Life's not a race, take it a little slower;Stop and hear the music before the song is over.

You & I never had it easy, we had to work so hard,
and, every time it feels like we're going to make it,
that’s when it all falls apart.But, I'll take my chances with you ♥

You're the only one I want to talk to at the end of the day.

People always ask me

" What makes you like him? "But i don't want to tell them,
because if they understand,
they would like him too.

The only thing harder then walking away ; is never looking back

AKJiaRong, all these while when Yi Ting was gone, you'd be the one by my side.
To stand by me and help me up when everything goes wrong.
You were the one who would always be there to encourage and advice me.
I don't know who else I can speak out my feelings too without you guys around.
I miss you... & I will wait for you !

Speak your mind, even if your voice shakes.

"The more you suffer, the more it shows you really care."

I've a number of things to blog about.

i) Reply to Stephanie Seah's post on _ _ .
It doesn't really matter, you know. Since she wants to be childish then let her be.
Personally, I find it tiring to hate someone. So I'd rather pretend she's not there.
Though when sometimes, I look at her I still can't believe that she would actually do this to me. Well, this is life. & Speaking about fake ? She herself should know, right ? Lol.
Anyway, thanks for helping me speak out. But, really, it's okay.

ii) My muscles are aching all over.
Due to too much baby-carrying yesterday, I guess ?

Haven't seen Baby Slyvester for almost more then 3 months & he has grown , huge !

Carried Slyvester from my home all the way till Junction 8 yesterday ! Heavy !


iii) Yesterday.
Over @ Kend's place.







You know, you guys are more then what I'd ever ask for :)

I love you girls !

I'm addicted to words
but, they're useless.

A best friend is someone who screams to you in the hallways saying "I love you",
not caring if anyone thinks you're a lesbian,
but only caring that you hear them everytime.

Because we are what we are& sometimes that's not enough.

Camp was awesome.
Our team, Jjang, won $200 for best food award !

Nat : " Hey people of the best team Jjang. Thanks alot for making the camp fun. I have learnt alot from this camp. Thank you Cq and Daryl for teaming me up with Ivan to work with Mr Sinma. Willie and Wei Yi you guys helped the team a great lot in the interior and concept . And the two G's that helped us in the dressing. Especially Hee Jin and Angeline for the costume. Deborah, although you were not in our team thanks for going out with us, having fun at night playing werewolf. Hehe. Last but not least thank you Miss Selena for giving us your guidance and care for us, helping us video what we did in the camp. Rest early guys, lets work hard and promote to next year together :] From your very own Nat aka Ah Ong. "

And, I can't think of anything to say.Just like my heart, you stole my words away.

Hee Jin :D

Willie & Wei Yi.

Hee Jin & Our restaurant's menu !

Mr Sinma Dashow !


Those rambling conversations
where we talked about nothing,
that was something.