He’s not at all what I was looking for,
...he’s more.

Sunday, April 27, 2008
I hate how we never got our chance to see
what we could have been.
I hate how I know
I'm not over you
& how i pretend to be. I
hate how you totally moved on,
& you
have no idea that I haven't.

Junction 8 with baby,

Towned with Shirley & Xiang Jiu,



She escapes to a place inside her head

Friday, April 25, 2008

Sometimes, you just need to be alone.
Sometimes, not even your best friend needs to know.

Sometimes, you need to put up the walls
so you can examine yourself in the peace & quiet.

Sometimes the loud sounds need to fade away,
leaving only the silence & you; that's it.

I'm putting my walls back up,
never tearing them down again or letting people through.

I should have never let you.

Love me when I least deserve it,
because that's when I really need it.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Hostel, School, Hostel, & Home on weekends.
My life's a real bore.
No wonder I've been getting lesser and lesser hits each time I come back :(
I doubt anyone wants to read my blog anymore.

Okay. Well, I'll still blog (: Heh.
Bore you guys to death ! Muahahaha.


Crystal came to look for me at school today.


Headed to Parklane for our lunch then back to school.

Pris & Vivien's.

Photography CCA after school, fun (:

Then, picked mom up frm home & headed to Thomson Plaza for my dental appt.
I have new colours ! Pink && Greeeeeeen :D Heh.
Sadly, my teeth & gums hurt alot now :(


Ohoh ! & Dominic, you poor sick fella.
GET WELL SOON man ! :D

Going back to GH now, ciao !

Time has told me not to ask for more;
Someday, our ocean will find its shore.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Happy 2 years, baby (L)


365 days,
When will this torment be over ?
Again & again, you're still the only one.
I miss you, so much.

:D :D :D

Monday, April 21, 2008
2:01 Pm

Omg, he talked to meeee :D
Heh. Super cutteeeeeeeeeeeee :/:/

Super bad timing cause I'm gg out now :(
Argh.


&& He talked to me when I was doing my makeup !
So saaaaaaaad.

I miss you ! & I was seriously shocked to see you ytd :X

From the bottom of my heart,


Tricia : 亲爱的,
Although we often quarell over very small things,
& get angry with each other very easily,
I'm still very happy that we've overcomed all of it ! :D
I Love You ! (:

Cecilia : Baby ,
After this one and a half years I've known you,
we've begun to accept each others temper and attitude.

I've been so used having you around calling me "baby".
That, when you're not around to call me that, I really feel very weird.
Although, I know that sometimes it's my fault for finding fault in you,
but you know me .. My stubborn attitude overcomes me.
I really want to thank you for putting up with my sucky attitude all this time,
and always forgiving me for whatever bad things I've said or did to you.

& I'm so glad we've finally cleared up all our misunderstandings.
Baby, I love yooooouuuu !

Shirley : Er zi ,
I know we've drifted apart, & I really don't knw what to say .
Although sometimes, it's really very 'xin tong' to see that you're closer to other people
& not me anymore, but I've learnt not to be selfish.
It's for you to choose whoever you want to be with.
Being with you really taught me alot of lessons to be a better person.
& I really cherish the times we had together :D
I miss you always running around calling me ' paapaa ! '

&& I hope you'll still rmb me as your #1 papa (:

Do what you love. Fuck everything else.

Sunday, April 20, 2008
Bumped into alot of people today ! :D

Andy
came to pick me up at my place & we left for town !
Haven't stepped into town for like, ages ! Ohmy.

Walked over to fareast to look for Kuanyew & friend.
Super boring lah, they don't wanna let me shooop :(

Lunched @ KFC,
Then to heeren & cine,
& down to bugis :D

I was hungrrrryyy :/ , so we settled down at Mos Burger.
Saw Crystal & Steven ! (:
Waited for Raymond & co to come then I went to look for Crystal & co.

Slacked at bigbird, then to street.
Took a cab home with Crystal, Steven & John after that.

Should be meeting Wei Ting & co later ! :D
Miss miss her !





Don't let today's disapointments cast a shadow on tomorrow's dreams.

You're a sea of lies
and I've fallen in.

Monday, April 14, 2008
Super random post.

Debbie's msn nick made me laugh (:
"- ❥DEBBIE; 大B - 陈惠君 : ★ if sex make you high , drugs make me fly ★ "


You say, you say that we're all tied up
And wrapped around in useless, states of mind
But at the same time we're still young
We have the time to realize that we were wrong


These few days, I've been making super rash decisions.
Everything's going so wrong.
Sisters, Bf, friends, school, hostel, everything.
I seriously don't know what's wrong with me.


On 12 September 2007, Wednesday.
I posted :
" I get jealous over the slightest
things.
That's just me
"



Today, Junction 8 again with Annabelleeeeeee :D Lovelove !


Back to hostel later ! Don't miss me aight !

Kendre, I miss you alot.
I'm sorry I sorta ps-ed you ytd night.
Next week, okay ? Pinky promise ?
Please text me !

_|_ _|_ _|_

Sunday, April 13, 2008
Super duper angry.
Today is really not my day _!_

This is it.

I saw Daryl, a classmate of mine, at Junction 8.
So, seeing him wearing a red skinny I msged him "Red skinny siol!"

His gf then called me and said "AYE! WHO ARE YOU!",
as if I owe her a million dollars.

Angeline " WHO ARE YOU "
D's gf " WHO ARE YOU "
Angeline " WHO ARE YOU "
D's gf " Fuck you lah "
Angeline " Fuck you back "

And she put down the phone.
Obviously, already being super angry.
The fucking cheesebunxzs decided to call back.
But, this time it wasn't his gf. It was a guy.

Guy " Who are you ? "
D's gf " Who are you ? Msg my bf don't dare to say who are you eh ? "
(This is fucking' hilarious cause D is so short & fat & totally not my type lor, OMG -.- )
Angeline " You ask your friend who I am lah "
Guy " My friend don't know you "
Angeline " Tell him monday in school then say lah hor "

After I said that, Daryl probably knew who I was alrdy & the guy put down the phone.
But again his freakin' cheesebunxzsx gf decided to call back, again.

D's gf (Talking in a calmer tone this time) " Why you must call and scold me fuck you ? "
Angeline " Pls lah hor, is you scold me fuck you first okay. "
D's gf (Stupid cb tone come back agn) " Is you scold me first lor ! "
Angeline " Fuck you "
D's gf " Can you don't be so childish ?"
I was actually OKAY when she said that (childish).
BUT THEN, she decided to fuckin' spout bad words on me
& scolded me " Childish bitch " & kup the bloody phone.



Angeline is pissed.
You wanna play childish with me ? I'll play along.
Cause let me tell you, I am childish _!_

!@#$%^&*()

I just quarelled with one hella bloody fucker.

I need to go out.
I need someone to talk to.
I need some time away, away from this miserable place.
I want to go to the beach and scream my lungs out.
I need someone's shoulder to cry on. I have my own hands to cover and wipe my face _!_

Broken promises and dreams
No one hears her when she screams.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

We were joking around.
And I wondered will there come a time when we won't be joking?
And what would that look like?
And how would I feel?

I miss the way you make me feel so
cold & alone

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

I'll be okay, I promise.
Sometimes, we must get hurt in order to grow,
we must fail in order to know,
Sometimes, our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears.

(:






Words can't say
& I can't do enough to prove its all for you.

Monday, April 7, 2008

Aunty Prema called last night to tell me to report back at GH @ 430pm.
Scared me, I thought something bad happened & tried to recall what wrong thing I did.
But when I went back to report, homeleave got extended till tmr. Happy happy :D

My 16 years friend(Belle) is attached to my 11 years friend(Kelvin) ! :O


I want power in my words,
I want passion in my eyes.
& when i wake up,
I want life to be a surprise.