I've moved on now, but there's no one quite like you.

Wednesday, December 31, 2008
I'm so sorry for the string of emo post,
guess I haven't really been myself lately.
I just can't bring myself to smile & laugh as much.
Ohwell, the girls really had me laughing a whole lot today though :)


Preparations,


Surprise,


Happy Birthday Kendre Ho Yi Ying !





/I still have your picture, but I put it in a box along with the notes you wrote to me.
I cry almost every time I look at that picture now. & I still have pictures of you in my mind.
Pictures of us holding hands, of our first kiss. I want to rip up your picture into tiny little shreds.
But, I want to save it because you're in my memory & I don't want to forget you.
I may shred your notes, but I may keep them.
I see a picture of you in my mind everyday & it won't go away.
But, that picture, will eventually fade away... and so will you.

I wanted you.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way.
I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cause we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I... I'm so sorry baby
But I, I... I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
... to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you