Saturday, October 31, 2009
Supposed to be practicing our indian dance now, but we're taking a break! Anyway, I'm just here to wish Uncle Raymond a very very blessed & happy birthday ! Happy birthday uncle !! <:


Friday, October 30, 2009

Saturday, October 24, 2009
"Give me some time on my own, will you?"

I'm not worth your time & effort. Neither am I worth your tears. You've been great in everyway that you can be. I'm sorry for everything, sorry for dissapointing you over & over again.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
"You hear people talking about love like it's just something you say, something you fall in and out of over night. If only they knew about how you can get stuck in love & how once you're stuck you can't get out, even if the other person feels differently about you."

I'd like to thank my dearest sissy for making a trip all the way down to accompany me and even bought me my favourtie bubble tea and waffle. Thank you very much for making my day<;

You know, you're so far beyond amazing.

I've never fell for someone in such a short period of time. And even though I promised myself I wouldn't risk the chance of getting hurt again, for some reason when i'm with you, it all seems worth it.

Never again,

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Four years ago, I knelt down and apologised begging you not to leave. You kicked me away, not even turning back to look. When I've finally decided to let you go, you're pleading me to stay by your side? For the past few years, have you ever spared a thought for me? For how I felt? How much I tried to change for you, but it was never enough? Now, I'm begging you again. But this time, I'm begging you to leave me alone.

"It's funny how one day someone walks into your life and suddenly you can't remember how you lived without them."

Monday, October 19, 2009
It's only 6am now, my paper is in another 5 hours and I'm already up! Even though, English is my best subject, I'm still pretty worried ;/ Please pray for me?
Woodlands > CCK > Bugis > Kallang > Bishan > Home.

Hellokitty sushi @ Bugis !!!

Kallang Leisure Park to study with Mr turtle.

He wrote this on his own paper -.-

I woke up in time to go to churchhhhhhhhhh ! *Clapclap*

Spent my whole day with this little girl. Was initially supposed to study but ... *Stares at Allan*

Had a really good time catching up with you ^^

Talked to Allan & Ivan on the phone before sleeping ^^ You guys never ever fail to make me smileeeeeeeeeee & you too, Remmy ! Okay, going to meet Ivan for breakfast now! Wish me luck for my exam people!
If you're going to love me, love me deeply.
If you're going to break my heart, break it all.
If you're going to care, care for me completely.
If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall.
If you're going to stay, then stay forever.
And if you want to leave, then do it today.
If you're going to change, change for the better.
And if you're going to talk, please mean what you say.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
"After all is said and done, I still think you're amazing, I still cherish every moment I spent with you & every smile you brought to my face. I'll forever be thankful that someone like you was brought into my life. Even if it had to be taken away too soon, you were a miracle, you were a fairytale I got to live."
Thursday, October 15, 2009
"Because I refuse to let myself fall down again."

Who are you to judge the life I live?

I know I'm not perfect and I don't live to be,
but before you start pointing fingers,
make sure your hands are clean.

I know that it's been really tough being my friend, trying to always put a smile on my face, trying to just make me happy. I know it can be really frustrating when everyone else around (even me) tries to bring you down just because you treat me too well. I always thought from the start, it was all your fault for being so mean to me in the first place, that you deserve all that. Everytime you tell me how much I mean to you, I always thought it was just for fun. I'd never expected you'd do so much for me. And when everyone else decided to walk out on me, I thought only Jm would stay. What surprised me was, that you did too. We had countless amounts of conflicts, but still you never failed to lend me your shoulder to cry on or your listening ears when I need them. No matter how mean I used to treat you, how I'd do everything just to irritate you, you still stood by me. I promise I'll be here for you whenever you need me. Always remember that I'm just a call away.

Lastly, I want to tell you that, your blog song is damn irritating becos' the girl keeps screaming. HAHAHA.

Ever since I met you it just hasn't been the same,
all I've been doing is putting hearts around your name.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Yesterday, Stephanie, Ivan & Remus decided to turn up outside my school after my lessons ended to give me a surprise. Though I had very limited time to spend with you guys, I still want to thank three of you for making the effort to come all the way down. Seriously, I was really very touched. I just don't know how to put my feelings into words & actions sometimes. Still, thank you guys for putting a smile on my face. You guys really made my day <3 Oh, not forgetting Allan who was also part of the plan !

/ I finally plucked up my courage and deleted all your textes and pictures, from my computer and phone. I guess it's about time I let you go. How long has it been? Almost four years. I've had enough, I'm done holding on. All these time, I tried to be everything you wanted me to be, I tried to give you all that I can, but I guess I'll never be good enough for you. I don't know why is it, when everytime I feel like giving up you start to send me sweet textes all over again. But you know what? This time, it's over. I surrender, I give up. I don't need you in my life anymore. You can call me a loser or say that I'm weak, that I shouldn't give up becos one day you may come back to me. But, I'm through with this, I'm done. I'm losing my grip. As of today, now, I'm letting you go. Letting you walk out of my life. Forever.

When people ask if I believe in forever I laugh and say,
"The way my life is going right now,
I don't even believe in tomorow."

Sunday, October 11, 2009
Was supposed to iceskate with dearest today, but change of plan & decided to study with the guys instead. Headed to Kallang Leisure Park.

Chilled & studied @ Coffee Bean as starbucks was full.

Aww, I want my chocolate cream chip chip chip ! :<

Anyhow, I guess I can say today was a sucess? We finally managed to study that few hours without any distractions. I'm so proud of myself, and you guys too of course ^^ Also, thanks for teaching me Mr Turtle & Mr Lepri. ♥

Once you've been through hell,
you never forget what the flames felt like.

Despite all the drama and commotions, this week seemed to past pretty fast. Anyway, whatever you're thinking now, whatever you're trying to do, just get this straight, I'll never ever let you see me down. Uh-uh.

Yesterday, Miss Selena brought me out for lunch
at some Japanese restaurant to dicuss about something.

& When I didn't know what drink to order she told the waiter "Just get her a pink drink, get her anything pink, this lady here likes pink". I swear I almost laughed my ass off. The waiter gave me some berry drink, awesome ttm \m/

Okay, I shall stop here. Gotta meet the guys to study now.
Blog again when I get home.

I know I'm not supposed to & I don't know why,
but damn, I miss you. Alot.

There's a point in life when you get tired
of chasing everyone & trying to fix everything.
It's not giving up. It's realizing that you don't need
certain people & the drama they bring.
Saturday, October 10, 2009

I want to be a child again.
Skinned knees are easier to heal than broken hearts
There's no point in trying to talk to you, I've tried to have a conversation with you so many times but all that comes out is the empty feeling in my stomach and it makes me realize, you will never feel the same way about me, as I do about you.

There was a point when I was just happy being friends,
but then you had to go & make me fall in love with you ?

It's eleven am and I haven't slept a wink. I forsee eyebags, boohoo :<500 days of Summer with Allan Ivan Remus & Lester.

Filled our tummy's after the movie & as usual, lan-ed.

Coincidentally saw Zanthel Iggy Jonathan Timothy & Sasi @ Cyberdome as well. *Jumps around* Sent the four gays off and chilled with the rest for awhile before heading home.

Anytime, anywhere, with you guys. No matter how bad my day was, or how moody I am, you guys never fail to make my day a whole lot brighter <:
Friday, October 9, 2009
Have you ever wanted to hear the sirens of the ambulance
& the doctors saying "She isn't gonna make it",
just to see who really cares enough?

What is life? I just don't get it.
What's the point? Why should we live it?
If no one really cares & we're all going to die one day,
then what's the point of the pain & heartache?
What's the point of live?
Why do we even live it?

The truth is every girl has a dream.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Mine is to wake up to rocks being thrown at my window
only to see the boy I love standing in the rain.


Wednesday, October 7, 2009
@ School yesterday,

You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad.
Love what you've got, and remember what you had.
Always forgive but never forget, learn from your mistakes but never regret.
People change and things go wrong, just remember...
life still goes on.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Down with a fever, throat ulcers & eye infection :<
The picture above was drawn by Ivan Lim. Not bad huh ? Except for my face being distorted and my nose and mouth look really huge. Hahaha, kidding !! ~ Thanks so much for your effort eh <:


Monday, October 5, 2009
There are four things you cannot recover in life: The stone after it's thrown, the word after it's said, the occasion after it's missed, the time after it's gone.

Finally got to meet up with the cousins after so long. It's been so long since I last stepped into their Eunos place. Played lanterns, chilled, slack & just caught up. No, actually only me & Pong were catching up the rest were erm, looking for? The lost cat? Rofl. Anyhow, I had a pretty good time. Minus the fact that Dylan had to keep irritating the shit out of me. Oh besides, I found your blog eh. Mr whatever -.- Hawhaw. Last long both of you, love birds.

Headed over to cine to meet Allan & co. Over to Supperclub aftermath & met up with the rest. I had helluva fun, esp with all the great company I had around me. Allan Iggy Ivan Jacob Jonathan Mingkai Remus Sasi Stephanie Tracey Yao Zanthel. Saw familiar faces & old friends, even the people I didn't want to see as well. Though it started out quite boring & awkward, I'm glad that we all managed to have fun.\m/ And I would also like to thank Ning for everything you did for us<: Oh, and Happy birthday Althea Ang Kang Gekkkkkkkkkkk ^^V I'm really sorry I couldn't go over to Social House because of time constrain. Nevertheless, I hope you enjoyed yourself ! XXX

I love how you can make me smile with all your random rubbish textes, but I hate that I can't make you smile with mine.