A little more than yesterday.

It's the last day of 2010. I won't say that this year has been the best year of my life, but I wouldn't say that it's the worst either. I met new friends, lost some. Broken friendships, broken relationships. Learnt new things, and became stronger. Through broken ties, I slowly learnt how to rely on myself. Something, I've not done in quite awhile. I wouldn't say I regret anything I did, but I'd say I made a grave mistake this year. No prizes for guessing though. I guess all we can say is, never judge a book by it's cover.

If I learned anything in life is that you have to fight for what you want because not everything is going to get handed down to you. I learned that you have to go through struggle just for things to get better. I learned that you can only hold on until you learn to let go. I learned that good things come in different sizes. I learned that sometimes grass really does grow greener on the other side. I learned that only person you can trust is yourself. I learned that hearts mend and heal just as fast as friends come and go. I learned that school will be the best years of your life. I learned that people aren't always going to be there. I learned that secrets don't make friends, friends make secrets. I learned regardless to how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there will be something else to take it's place. I learned that who you are today might not be who you are tomorrow. I learned that the people you say you hate end up being the only people you can trust. & I learned that even though times get hard you can't let yourself fall, you have to pick yourself up and realize this is life things are going to happen for the worse and for the better.

Real eyes. Realize. Real lies.

No one has the right to tell you who you are and control your life, cause it's yours. Your life is meant to be lived by no one else but yourself. We sometimes let people get the best of us, destroy us and change our opinions on what we believe is true. Only you know what is right for yourself, you have the power, you make the choices and learn. Each experience we go through in life is a lesson to be learned. We all make mistakes, why is it so hard for some to understand? No one should be judged by the mistakes they have made. It's past news. Everything happens for a reason, and without the hard times, how would we ever realize our true strength? It's only through a time of suffering when we realize how strong we truly are inside, when we realize how much we can actually put up with and deal with before we eventually break.

Always ♥

New beginning.

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More than words.

Uncertainty.

First.

Specs day + Ice Cream + Manicure + Htht!
Bishan > Membina > Town > Haji > Home.

You know that feeling? That feeling where you sit by yourself and just remember the old times. You laugh by yourself with a ridiculous smile. Then you have that tear run down your cheek cos' y'knw everything's changed.

Misery buisness.

"Newer technology may not always be better."

City college carnival 10'

Make a little wish

It's been almost a week since I snipped my hair off. Have been receiving alot of positive & negative comments on it. Personally, I don't quite like it. Or rather, I'm just not used to it. But then again, I like the change. It feels like a new me. He he he!

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Land of smiles

It's said to be that Thailand is the land of smiles & I couldn't agree more. The people there are all really friendly and chirpy they made it feel so much like home. It was really nice to leave everything behind for awhile. No doubt, this was the best trip I ever had.

Behind the mask

Don't you hate it when people make a joke about you, about something that you are actually incredibly insecure about. They don't realize it, but every laugh feels like a stab in your chest, because it hurts so much. But you can't say anything, because then people would know your weaknesses. They'd know how insecure you really are. So instead you just laugh it off, and hide the pain you feel inside.

Shattered.

You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief & desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no one’s going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.

Btw, it's my little bro's birthday. So, if you ever get to read this, Alex, Happy birthday! ♥

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I can honestly say that this has been the best birthday, ever. Thank you Allan, Braudon, Cai Bao, Darren, Jeremy, Kenta, Leonard, Marrcus, Shaun, Sasi, Timothy, Wai Chong, Wei Xiang & Zanthel. Thank you to those who made the effort to come down to surprise me despite having work & school the next day. Thank you to all who ran in the rain to buy things for me. Thank you for the drinks, presents, chocolates, balloons, cake & the card. I'd especially like to thank Marrcus & Shaun for planning everything, and making it all possible. I'd also like to thank Allan for surprising me at my doorstep, and Wai Chong for running all the way down to Mustafa just to get bunny balloons. Thank you all so so so much!

Also, thank you to all who wished me through texts, calls, facebook and even twitter!

Happy birthday to Cecilia, Ice, Joel & Li Guang as well!

In & out of love

I kinda miss the bond we shared. I mean, who wouldn't miss that comfortable feeling with a person. Where we could talk for hours about everything, anything and not have a problem with the silence in the middle. Can't forget all the ridiculous stuff we did. Stupid or not, everything was just so fun. Endless nights, real talks, the "remember whens" I remember it all. And it's funny what life does, how it could just give you things and take it away so soon. I really can't get it to my head that you grow distant from people and that good things come to an end sooner or later. But along the way I learned one thing about life; it goes on, you just gotta pick yourself up and learn to keep up.

Fireworks.

Lost.

Have you ever wondered what goes on in the other planets, the galaxy?

" We can keep blaming each other for what happened. Or we can admit the harder truth -- It was no one's fault. It was fate, tradegy. "

Adore days like this, where all we do is sit down and talk for hours about everything ♥

I'm leaving, not becos' I no longer feel anything,
but becos' you never gave me a reason to stay.

The last exorcism

Caught the movie "The last exorcism". It's not the kind of movie I'd usually catch, but my persuasive classmates managed to convince me to watch it. It wasn't as scary as I expected it to be, but to be honest, it still freaked me out a little.

/ Pictures are random shots I took of my classmates since I didn't have my camera with me today
& I didn't wanna blog picture-less.

As most of you may know, O level papers have started since last week. Haven't had much time to even catch my breath. I'm pretty sure I did rather badly for the past few papers. My mind just goes blank everytime I enter the exam hall. Is it just me or has anyone else experienced that before?

David Choi - This Girl

"When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults or answers. You don't look for mistakes. Instead, you fight the mistakes. You accept the faults and overlook the excuses. The measure of love is when you love without measure. There are rare chances that you will meet the person you love and who loves you in return. So once you have it, don't ever let go. There's a chance it might never come your way again."

P/s I'll be having my first paper this Wednesday, wish me luck y'all! Till then, xx.

Happy birthday Banana!

Pictures when I have the time!

Happy pills.

Maybe all I need is a little more time.

Hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable.

Ever feel like you're surrounded by a crowd & yet, still feel like you're walking alone? Alienated from the world outside, as if you live in the cocoon of your solitude. Loneliness is not a desirable option but often it helps to unclog one's mind, I realised.