You know what used to be the best part of my days? Waking up to your face, waking up knowing that somebody is going to be there for me, sleeping and knowing that when I wake up you'll still be there. Where are those days?
Have you ever wondered about the things we tell ourselves before we fall asleep? We whisper the words in the dark, telling ourselves that we’re happy, or that he’s happy, that people will change their minds. We persuade ourselves that we can live without the people who have left. Each night before we fall asleep we lie to ourselves in a desperate hope that come morning, it will all be true.
Ever had a day when you wake up, have totally no plans and no clue of what to do, you stare at the phone and there's not a single call or text and you just don't know what to do or where to go? Just when you tell yourself, "Nevermind, I'll stay home and do something useful today" the phone rings & the next minute you're dressing up and leaving the house. Is it just me, or does it happen to anyone else out there? Knight & Day with Allan, Carilyn, Chee Chong, Jeffrey, Joel & Wee Kiat. It's a pretty funny movie, one of the movies I would recommend y'all to watch. Already being really funny as it is, the guys had to add on a whole lot of unessesary comments which made the movie mad hilarious. Well, it's always about having the right company isn't it?
In the process of changing my hairstyle with this silly girl here. Had our haircut a few days back. There's not much difference to mine though, but anyhow we'll see how it goes next week! *giggles*
I never want you to feel like I don't need you. I do need you. More than I should. I'm trying to live my life without you though, because that's what both of us need. So let me be, let me try to live the way I should.
Today, I finally managed to sit down for a straight five hours with my maths homework. It's the first time in a long while I actually felt this sense of accomplishment. I guess I really need to buck up and discipline myself. Shall start from turning back my bodyclock and making weekly schedules.
The world is going to throw us a million reasons why this isn't going to work out between us. But I'm armed with the one reason why it will: I love you.
"You expect her to always say the right things, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect her to calm you down when you’re yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, and utterly defeated when something doesn’t exactly match up with all your plans. But that’s the thing. Love isn’t a plan."
Big thank you to this girl who accompanied me to run around looking for stuff. In return, I accompanied her down to Azzura. It's been a really long time since I went to an underage party, but to be honest it wasn't that bad. Just that the songs weren't good at one point or another and the night ended too early.
Rong. 11 said (3:52 AM): god didnt gave me a glib tongue neither good talking skill, but god gave me one thing which is to stay with my friends silently when they are down
You hug him goodbye like it’s nothing, while all you want to do is hold on forever, but you let go, smile and walk away. Then cry all the way home because you know it will never be the same because try as you might, you can’t make someone love you. Sometimes, you have to let them be free and letting go, that is when love hurts the most of all.
I can’t waste too much time missing something or someone from the past. I got to accept that life’s never constant; things change and people grow apart. Yet, I can’t stop thinking about how good it used to be. Afraid that I’d never experience it again, afraid that I’ve already lived it and lost it.