2013

Tuesday, December 31, 2013
2013 is finally coming to an end and boy, am I glad.

2013 has been such a heartwrenching year, filled with so many heartbreaks & disappointments.
So many wrong decisions that ended up in regrets.

Right now, I'm glad to be leaving it all behind and moving on to the next chapter of my life with my little A who is just a couple of days old but has already brought me so much joy :')

Welcoming 2014 with open arms
Cheers to a better year, x

"Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a good one"

Slowly but surely

Monday, December 30, 2013
Super happy because the tubes & drips have finally been removed from beebee today! She's able to eat normally now. Not too much though, since the paediatrician is afraid her little tummy might not be able to take it. She is also still on her meds. Slowly but surely, I'm certain my little angel is gonna get well in no time! :)

Hush little baby don't you cry,
everything's gonna be alright.

Sunday, December 29, 2013
Finally have the time to sit down and have a little time of my own, 6 minutes to be exact, before I have to start pumping milk again.

If you don't already know, I finally gave birth to my baby girl on boxing day (26 Dec)! 
Peek-a-boo!
Welcoming my little Angel to the world ~
*Bloop bloop*

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However, happiness is only shortlived. 

 In the wee hours of the morning we were supposed to be discharged, nurses suddenly came checking on me but little A didn't come. (They usually bring her to me every two hours for me to breastfeed her) I finally had the chance to get some rest after 2 days so I didn't put much thought into it. 

At 7AM her paediatrician came to update me on her, like every other morning, but this time it was different. She was flustered. I couldn't catch much of what she said except that "We couldn't wait anymore, so we sent her to the NICU straight". That was when I realized something was really wrong. I immediately sat up and asked her what was wrong, she didn't know either except that my little one was puking & pooing blood and we'd have to wait for the surgeon to come. I was lost.

I always thought a worst nightmare of a mum was to lose her figure, to get stretchmarks, etc. But it really struck me that nothing mattered more to me than my little girl. There was nothing I could do but wait. I couldn't eat or sleep much that entire day. 

{BRB. Gta pump the engorging boobies now. FML they hurt so bad?!}

Back.

Not going to go into details of everything, but thank you for those who has kept her in your prayers. Though she's still in the NICU she is currently recovering well :) 
Little A going strong *flex muscles*
3 days old!!! The first time she held my finger!!! 
Still pretty smiley even when she's unwell. G'awwwww~ 
"MUMMY WILL YOU STOP TAKING PICTURES OF ME?! :@"

Please continue staying strong!!! :*

Can't wait to head to the hospital to see my little one tmr morning. G'night for another 2 hours before I gta wake up to pump again. Oh well *shrugs*

Mucous plug

Saturday, December 21, 2013

Bled this afternoon & was abt to head to the hospital straight, but called my gynae and he told me to wait till I started having contractions which should take a couple of hours. It's already 1am now and I only have slight cramps. Super anxious! Am I overreacting?!?!

Nervous

Wednesday, December 18, 2013
So anyway... the little one decided not to come out yesterday. But today, I started feeling very bad cramps in the middle of the night again. It's like she's giving me all these false hope, I've absolutely no idea what I should expect and it's making me nervous as hell??? 

39 weeks: Mini update

Tuesday, December 17, 2013
Been feeling cramps the past couple of days, which I'm guessing are braxton hicks?

Was feeling so bad at around 5AM this morning cos the cramps got pretty bad but I still managed to fall asleep.
Woke up again at around 8AM and thought that was it. That I was gonna deliver. Decided to call my gynae to ask if I'm gonna deliver but the nurses told me to wait till the pain gets too much to handle. Read up online and most people say you're only gonna deliver when the contractions get so bad that you can't even talk or breathe. Went back to sleep and woke up feeling so much better.

Am starting to get really anxious since gynae says she should be out anytime. I have no idea what to expect. Crossing my fingers hoping that little one will give me a smooth delivery.

Wish me luck!
Till then, x

Reflection

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Bricks 'n' Cubes

Saturday, December 7, 2013
Caught Catching Fire with J the second time since he has yet to watch it.
I felt the show was pretty good, but to him it was too confusing? :O
We both preferred the first Hunger Games though.

While waiting for our movie to start, we wanted to grab a bite & chanced upon this cafe decorated entirely with LEGO! Thought it had a pretty unique & quirky concept so we decided to give it a try! 
You can order from their Ipad menu provided at every table! There're even LEGO games inside for you to play with! How cute.

Since they were a pretty newly opened cafe there wasn't much choices to choose from, so the both of us decided to settle on Mud cheesecake & Coke float.
The mud cheesecake was pretty good but the coke float was just... MEH. Their vanilla ice cream tasted sooooooo weird. I couldn't even finish half my cup :(
Here's Tiko J looking really dirty with his goatee & moustache. I really hate it but he thinks it makes him look older & manlier?! Don't y'all think it makes him look so unkempt??? No???

Anyway, if you're interested, Bricks 'n' Cubes is located at:
The Cathay 
2 Handy Road 
#02-12/14
Singapore 229233

"Never lie to someone who trusts you..."

November babies

About two weeks ago, was my 21st birthday. Many of my friends kept asking me how I was gonna celebrate it. I had so many plans at the start of this year, I even researched which hotels I was going to book & everything. Then, came along my little one. Initially I told J, we could just head out to have dinner since I didn't/couldn't do much but when it came nearer to my birthday, my hormones started getting weird & I started to get really bad rashes (due to pregnancy). I felt so horrible I didn't even want to step out of my house. My parents decided to cook me a meal instead. And God, am I thankful cos... THEY COOKED ALL MY FAV DISHES!!!
There was waaaaay much more food than this but everyone was starving so I didn't manage to capture everything.
Butter crab!!! One of my TOP fav dishes everrrrrrrr!!! If you follow me on instagram you'd already have seen this. If you haven't, follow me on instagram @xoangeline for on-the-go updates! I haven't been updating much since I haven't exactly been going out alot/ taking alot of pictures BUT rest assured I'll continue posting frequently once the little one is out. (Counting down to approx two weeks!)

Also, a couple of days after that was my younger brother's birthday & we decided to have steamboat. My younger brother is easily contented as long as there's food so it's pretty easy to satisfy him.
1/3 of the food we had that day. SUPA NOMZ!!!

Though I didn't have a huge celebration like most people on my 21st, I'm more than contented :)
Also, thank you to all those who offered to come over but I refused becos I didn't want anyone to see me in that horrible rashes-filled state. Thank you to those who wished & thank you who those who bought me presents and red packets! Tee hee ^^

What love does (and doesn't) look like

Thursday, December 5, 2013
Why do people who love you always lie to you and think it’s okay?
Why do people who love you try to change you?
"Why do people who love you prevent you from doing what you love?
These are just a few of the questions I see pop up on my newsfeed every once in awhile, all with the same answer:
They don’t.
People who truly love you, do not do these, or other negative things to you. People who really love you will not betray your trust. They will not lie to you, especially repeatedly. Love is a product of honesty, trust, and mutual respect – without those things you cannot have real love.
This may be infatuation masquerading as love. This may be someone who is trying to control you by making you think that they love you. This may be someone you are attached to who you are trying to defend. But, this is not someone who loves you.
I believe one of the most important things that we can teach our future (and current) generations, is what love truly looks like. People who constantly hurt you and lie to you do not truly love you and we absolutely cannot allow decent human beings to continue remaining in relationships like this, while believing it is normal or right.
It’s not."
Quoted from http://jamesmsama.wordpress.com/2013/12/02/what-love-does-and-doesnt-look-like/ 

Week 37

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

I can't believe it's in another 2 weeks. Can't decide if I'm more nervous or excited. Really can't wait to see how the little one looks like but at the same time I'm totally freakin' out since my tolerance for pain is pretty damn low.

Wish me luck!

P/s, Apologize for the string of wordy & boring posts lately. Life's pretty mundane & I haven't exactly been going out much since I'm really clumsy and have to be extremely careful this period of time.

Trust

Monday, December 2, 2013
What do you do when someone breaks your trust?
Once or twice, I'd be sure to forgive without a doubt.
But what if your trust has been broken, over & over again uncountable times?
Do you trust them again? Or?

Dilemma. 

Decisions

Sunday, December 1, 2013
As much as I hate to admit, the past week hasn't been really well for me.
I've been stuck in a situation where I have absolutely no idea what I should do, or say. 
I spent all the time I had, every waking hour, thinking of what would be the best decision
but to be honest, I'm still so confused.
I never imagined in my entire life that I'd have to go through this, since I always thought I was lucky,
but I did.
Life's so unpredictable sometimes.

A couple of days ago, I was so stern & firm with my decision
but right now, I'm stuck in a position where I don't know what I want or what I think is right.

Forgiving is easy. Forgetting on the other hand... ... 

Insomnia?

Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Time check: 7:20AM

Had only a couple of hours of sleep when I woke up to a rude kick in my tummy. Haven't really been able to sleep well recently & every single day at the same time, little one kicks me at the exact same time (no matter what time I fall asleep) as though telling me she's awake. Wonder how it'd be like when she's out? Hehe!

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Chanced onto this video on my fb the first thing I logged in.

HE IS SO FUNNY!!! Totally made my morning!!!
I remember watching his Chatroulette Call me maybe version sometime last year?

In case you've yet to watch it...
Just check out all the people's reactions.
HAHAHAHAHA

Hope this made y'all laugh too.
Happy midweek all! x
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
Chances.
Why do we give them when people don't appreciate them anyway?
Monday, November 25, 2013
Feelings?
I sure as hell wish I didn't have em'.

Week 36

Friday, November 22, 2013
Really don't want to bore y'all with all my preggy posts but since she's gonna be out really soon I wanted to at least record down what I'm going through/ have gone through during this pregnancy so I can look back at it next time! So please please, bear with me! *Evil laughter*

Recently I've been feeling really really uncomfortable. I think it's cos of the huge tummy that has been causing me to be really breathless. I've also been down with rashes for the past few days and boy, IT IS SO ITCHY!!! :'( The rashes go all the way from my belly, to my chest all the way up till my neck area & it's absolutely hideous. Asked my gynae about it this morning and he said it's cos my hormones are changing plus I have really sensitive skin. Dang! Really crossing my fingers hoping it'll go away before Sunday or else I don't know how I'm gonna be at Joycie's wedding. 

I know my blog has been really boring lately, but I haven't been doing anything much. Life's been really mundane just waiting day after day for the little one to arrive. Even if I do go out, I rarely take pix now becos I refuse to have any makeup on if it's not necessary since my comlplexion is also really really terrible now. Right as I'm typing this I spot two huge ass pimples on my face. Argh, how depressing! But then agan, I know it's gonna be all worth it!!! It will be!!! 

Also, I decided to follow the trend & finally created dayre. So if you've a dayre account, pls follow me @ xoangeline! :) See y'all thr!!!

OH AND BEFORE I FORGET AGAIN, PLEASE ALSO SUPPORT & FUND ME AT CAROUSELL!!! I'm a boring person so my nickname is too, xoangeline over there. He he he. Thank you in adv! ^^

Week 35

Tuesday, November 19, 2013
"The next girl I'll ever love will be our daughter"

Forever Yours Hair Couture

Sunday, November 17, 2013
Once,
twice,
thrice.

3 times, I've been to Forever Yours Hair Couture
& I've finally decided to cancel my sponsorship with them.

Been contemplating to blog about this and putting it aside for awhile because I wasn't sure if I should or not.
But after seeing Jacinta's review {@jacjacjacinta on instagram} I decided to write this because;
(even though I don't have much readers/ am not exactly influencial)
1) It didn't only happen once or twice.
2) It didn't only happen to me.
3) What if my reader/ follower happens to go down and have that exact same experience as all of us did? Wouldn't that make me really untrustworthy & unreliable?

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During my first visit, I was pretty excited since I THOUGHT I was finally going to get the hair colours I've wanted for awhile.
I went down with a friend, Shermaine, who blogs @ shiminxx.blogspot
Both of us had coincidentally wanted the same hair colour & we showed both Jonal and his stylist the picture.
This was the exact picture we showed him // Pic from Shermaine

The first thing he said when he saw the picture was, "Oh, yea, green colour"
Both me & S looked at each other, stunned.
After trying to explain the colours we wanted, he told us he didn't have the colours and he'd do it for us halfway first & we'd have to go back another time to get the rest of the colours done.
Despite being a little skeptical, we agreed & went home with both our hair half done...

On our second visit, we headed down in hopes of finally getting the colour we wanted.
And you guessed it... this is how it turned out...
{Mine}
{Shermaine's}

Shermaine decided to get her fringe cut & she specifically told Jonal, "Below my eyebrow"
I guess her words fell on deaf ears since he cut her fringe above her eyebrows, which was not what she had wanted.

Jonal kept insisting that it looked better that way.

After Shermaine left, I had to continue to stay on because despite there being Jonal & his stylist, he absolutely refused to help with my hair even when it was getting really late. 

When my hair was done, I checked it and told them that I felt my colour was uneven.
Jonal then asked me where I was going after that, when I told him I was heading home, he put dye on my hair and told me to go home without having the dye washed off... 

I even asked him "Are you sure?"
And he told me it was alright since I was going home anyway & it didn't matter.
So yes, I went home with wet dye on my hair.

Two weeks later, we then decided to make another appointment, for both of us to get treatment & Shermaine to get her hair re-dyed again as well. 

This time, Shermaine decided on going full red head. We thought maybe our previous colour was pretty hard to get & maybe that's why it got pretty screwed up so maybe red would be an easier alternative. 

While they were mixing the dyes, we told Jonal, it looks really purple & as usual, he insisted that it was going to be red. But again...
This was what her hair colour turned out as.
I SEE NO RED THERE?

To be honest, I thought the colour was pretty nice even though it wasn't what she requested for.
The treatment they did was pretty good as well as it made my hair really smooth for the next entire week. 
P/s She has since dyed her hair herself & it looks waaaaaay better than what they did for her.

I thought really long before wanting to post up all this, as I wasn't sure if others had the same experience as we did but after seeing more and more reviews I decided, I just can't keep mum about it. Their lack of basic respect & professionalism just puts me off.

Did I also mention that everytime we were there & even when he was free, he'd be watching his dramas & refusing to help his one and only staff with our hair. Also, scolding & bossing his staff around despite us and other customers being around. 

I read online about what he'd done a couple of years ago, here (it's just one of the many articles), and he told me that someone had set him up forcing him to close down his business but after what has happened to me, my friends and so many others out there... What's your say in this?

Happy Friday

Friday, November 8, 2013
So if you read my posts ystd, you'd have known that I resetted my phone by accident and every single thing was gone. But as I was fidgeting with my phone just now, suddenly, all my photos from years ago appeared in my gallery. 
I also tweeted asking how it's possible to get deleted ig photos back, and I got back every single one of em'. Even got back msn conversations and pictures with people I can't even remember?!
Was tryna figure out wtf was going on when I realized that it's becos I accidentally synced my phone with my email!!! I don't even rmb backing up anything at all!!! 
I PROMISE TO BACK UP MY PHONE EVERY NOW & THEN FROM TODAY ONWARDS.
 I am so happy now!!! Cept' for the fact I'm gonna have to slowly clear the thousands of photos from years back. 

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Also, feeling really blessed & loved today. 

Came back to my parents place and was telling daddy how I felt like drinking soya bean, and went to take a short nap. When I woke up thr was two big cartons of soya bean in the fridge!!! Simple things like these make me feel really really blessed :)

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Scrolling through my old photos and I really miss those times I was confident enough to go out with zero makeup!!!
HERE'S MY HUGEASS MAKEUPLESS FACE FOR YOU
BWAHAHAHAHAHA
Thursday, November 7, 2013
Woke up & decided to play with the apps on my phone & while I was trying to delete some apps, I accidentally restored my phone's factory settings which resulted into 10k worth of pictures, contacts, etc gone!!! So damn upset :(

Anyone knows how I can get em' back? Please, please email me!

Chubby Wubby

Sunday, November 3, 2013
So last week I was randomly telling J how I felt like eating rosti, & he decided to bring me to Marche on Saturday to satisfy my craving! ^^
Never knew Marche opened till midnight btw.
He cut his hair, and I think the hairstyle makes him look like a little boy. No? Bwahahaha.
Rosti, finally! 
According to T, rosti is pretty easy to make but I keep procastinating to try it out. Soon, soon!

My fil just came home, looked at me and said "You really getting fat now, your face is so round now"
WTF :( I KNOW I KNOW.

 I really can't stand how freakin' chubs my face is now too, boo hoo :(

Impromptu

Thursday, October 31, 2013
Headed over to Bugis+ to have their famous Ramen Champion with Shermaine after getting our hair done.
I absolutely love love love the Cha Shu ramen from the first stall!
Remember to try it out if you're there :)

x

Whatever will be, will be.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013
J posted the prev post while I was in the toilet. He can be so adorable at times.

Wanted to turn in early today as I was so exhausted earlier on, but I just couldn't fall asleep. I can never ever sleep alone. It's like a habit. So while waiting for J to end work & head home, I was scrolling through my phone and found these pictures...
HAHAHAHA
Why is my husband so... pretty??? Hahahaha 
Even his brows are shaped nicer than mine. Le sigh...
Pardon my hairless brows :(

Alright, he's bugging me to play a game of dota with him before we head to bed.
He is such a kid *rolls eyes*

G'night, hope y'all had a great monday! x

i love angeline yeh wan yi

Pregnancy woes & update

Sunday, October 20, 2013
*Please note that this is gonna be a really boring post of me whining & ranting away*

Recently I've been feeling really really whiney, insecure & upset, mainly becos of the changes happening on my body. If most of you don't already know, I'm currently almost 8 months pregnant. To me, my tummy is alr pretty big but I've no idea why many still can't tell. Most of my friends tell me it just looks like I've grown slightly chubbier :O

It never occured to me that I'd ever have stretchmarks having my first baby, since most of my friends do not have em' & I've been religiously putting on my stretchmark cream 2-3 times a day since I first found out about my pregnancy. It may seem like I'm over exaggerating to most people but I was literally devasted when stretchmarks started showing. I really wanted to cry looking at the mirror. I've no idea if it's because of the hormone changes that I'm more sensitive to well, almost everything now. 

I'm not so worried about my weight gain because I can always work out and lose them, but stretchmarks are a huge deal to me because they will never ever go away. They will fade, but they'll always be there... :'( 

On the side note, I'm pretty excited to see the little one. PLEASE BE GOOD OK?!?! 
Not sure if you can tell what you're seeing? The first time my brother saw this he asked me if that was ginseng... Wtf.

Everyone thinks she looks like me when I was a baby, but I'm crossing my fingers hoping she gets her daddy's eyes since his are way bigger! 

& here's a little update on my tummy taken about a week or so ago.
See you soon, little one!
x

Ps/ Just realised this is the first post I've ever written anywhere online about my pregnancy...

Forever Yours Hair Couture

Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Gna be sharing with y'all about my new hair sponsor today!

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This was my hair before anything was done...
Felt really guilty as I was late for my appointment & they had to stay all the way up till 11:30PM just to get my hair done! (Their usual closing hours is @ 9PM fyi)

I told him I wanted to have rainbow colours on my hair, but didn't want it to be too obvious as well.
& this was what he came up with! :)
The colours are mostly visible only when I tie up my hair so it's not too obvious!
Jonal also gave me a treatment to do a review on but I'm currently still trying it out so more on that another time!

Also, they're currently having a promotion for first timers at the salon!
If you're heading down, remember to book an appointment in advance & quote my name for a 5% discount off any service!


Forever Yours Hair Couture
150 Orchard Road Road 
Orchard Plaza #02-31
Singapore 238841

Five Colours In Her Hair

Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Here's little sneak preview of my hair! 
You can't see all the colours here though :(

Can't wait to share with y'all about my new hair sponsor tmr!

G'night fo' now ~
x

Grumpy Saturday

Saturday, October 12, 2013
Came back to my parents place on Wednesday to be greeted by snacks from the brother's gf. That hugeass hellokitty thingy is a freakin' chocolate calender, adorbs much?
 Decided to get Laduree macaroons for J cos he has NEVER tried macaroons before!

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Woke up feeling extremely grumpy today & despite that, when I told J I was hungry he told me to wait for him to eat later since he was still sleeping.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN I NEED TO WAIT FOR YOU TO EAT LATER
I WANT TO EAT NOW
THIS INSTANT
I'M HUNGRY NOW
YOU NEED TO FEED ME NOW
NOW NOW NOW

I was soooooo mad. But anw, he eventually decided to wake up to feed me. 

On the side note, daddy's cooking my favourite fried noodles for dinner today & I'm gna head out to meet the boys tonight! Been ages since I last met them. I'm soooooo excited! Hehe.

Looks like my day isn't gna turn out to be that bad afterall.

Gna start preparing now before the guys start to whine that they always have to wait for me again!
Toodles.

Bits of you

Monday, October 7, 2013
I want to take bits of you I love
and press them like flowers
between the pages of my favourite book

and I want you to take all the scraps
you dislike about yourself
and display them on my refrigerator
to show you I'm still proud
of the person you are
and the person you are becoming

but most of all, I want to spin you like a globe
and drag my finger across till it stops
to discover the pieces of you
that you've yet to reveal to anyone else

I want to wrap them up in linen
and place them in an old cigar box,
I'd tuck it away safely
in the top drawer of my bedside table
so you know I'll never let
those piece of you go

because when you share
hidden parts of yourself
with someone else,
you're trusting that person
to hold the secret sections
of your heart
and to love the bits
you thought
were unlovable

-M.K

Terrified

Sometimes, I'm terrified of my heart;
of it's constant hunger for whatever it is it wants.
The way it stops and starts.

-EAP

Afraid

Wednesday, October 2, 2013
I turn away
and close my heart
to the promise of love
that is luring.

For the past has taught
not to be caught,
in what is not
worth pursing

To never do
the things I've done
that once had led
to my undoing.

-LL

Some days,

Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Some days are harder than others

Some days I can't even think
Some days I can't eat or sleep
Some days I can't even leave my bed
Some days I feel like giving up
Some days are okay

Some days I don't need to fake a smile
Some days I almost feel happy again
Some days I know I will be okay

Time travelers

In all our wrongs,
I want to write him,
in a time where
I can find him.

Before the tears
that tore us.

When our history was
before us.

-LL

Gone like the wind

Finally scanned through my entire blog & locked all my older posts from 2004-2009. 
Albeit embarrasing, but I really miss those carefree days when we had no troubles & worries.
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So last week, I finally made my way down to Kim Robinson to have my hair wash after sooooooo long & I brought T along as well!
If you're interested, Kim Robinson is located at:

#02-12 Takashimaya Ngee Ann City 
391 Orchard Road 
S(238872)
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BEST. SHIT. EVER.
I love it!!! If I remember correctly, from what my brother told me, his gf got this from Australia.
Errrrmaaaagawd. This is sooooo good!!! If anyone knows whr to get this in Sg, please please let me know!?
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Last random picture from a simple date night out with J on our 3rd wedding monthsary! 
Been craving for ice cream with waffles for awhile & I finally got to eat it. Such a happy girl! :)

G'night x

Tricia's 21st

Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Initially thought that I'd have to make my way down to Clarke Quay alone, but instead, J decided to take a little bit time off work to come home & pick me & send me all the way down before making his way back to work. Mad mad love :*
Forced to sing by the birthday girl even though I was having a very bad sorethroat & flu! :(
It's so funny thinking back on all the things we've done & gone through together.
Y'knw even when the sky falls, you'll always have me. 
Even through all our constant quarrels & bickers ...
Pretty cupcakes baked by Jann! 
Happy 21st QAD 
x