Drawing the line - Being too over protective?

Friday, January 24, 2014
I've been told I might be a tad over protective over my daughter.

To me, if I don't like something I won't agree to it. No matter who you are.
She is my daughter and I have the right as a parent to choose what I think is the best for her.
I'm pretty sure most parents think that way, no?

There are uncountable things that people do to my daugther or things people do when she's around that pisses me off.

For instance, tickling her while she's sleeping? 
Srsly... if you're trying to make her laugh let me remind you that she's not even a month old, she can't even control her facial muscles yet. And besides she's sleeping, why in the world would you wanna disturb her peaceful sleep?

Or touching her & even her face with your dirty hands?
Just so you know, babies are supposed to be kept clean and are way cleaner than us. Even if it is troublesome, everytime even before I touch my little one I make sure to sanitize my hands. Who knows where your hands have been to & how much germs there are on it?

When people ask me stupid questions in front of my baby like,
"Why doesn't your baby cry?"
"How come I never hear your baby cry before?"
"Is there something wrong with your baby, why she seldom cry?"

I'm not exactly the superstitious type, but after looking after the little one for almost a month I've grown to be a little more superstitious since everytime somebody says something like that she starts wailing with no known reason. Besides, does my baby have to cry everytime you're around? Why should she cry if there is nothing wrong? The one I hate the most is when people ask if there's something wrong with her. This I might agree that I'm way more sensitive since she just came out of the ICU not too long ago. I mean srsly, wtf is wrong with you? Are you hoping there's something wrong with her?

It also really annoys me when people slam the door or talk too loudly when she's around.

Is this, being too overly protective? Or is it just me?
I'd love to hear your suggestions!
Leave a comment or drop me an email to let me know how you feel about this.

Once upon a time

There was a time I told you
of all that ached inside;
the things I held so sacred,
to all the world I'd hide.

But they became your weapons,
and slowly I have learnt,
the less that is said the better,
the lesser I'll be hurt.

Of all you've used against me,
the worse has been my words.

There are things I'll never tell you,
and it is sad to think it so;
the more you come to know me-
the lesser you will know.

Fitting into prenatal shorts?!

Friday, January 17, 2014
Good morning~

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Naked face. Dayummmm...
(Yes, I'm a blondie now. But no, this is not my final hair colour.)

Did I also mention that I was mad happy today cos I'm finally able to fit into my old shorts again!!! Fyeahhhhhhh! Though I'm still not back to my pre natal size & weight yet, I'm more than contented. 

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Little A had a sudden outbreak of pimples on her face afew days ago and I was pretty worried it was some kind of bad rash, turns out that it was from my hormones since I'm feeding her full ebm. I never knew that pimples on the mother would affect the baby too?! Hoping that our pimples will disappear soon. Sigh. I guess the sad thing about pregnancy is that it changes your body so so much :(

Week 3; Day 21

Wednesday, January 15, 2014
{Apologize for the string of posts on Little A, 
but there's nothing much I can blog about since confinement has got me locked up at home. Boo hoo.}

Was alone with Little A for a couple of hours this afternoon cos my pops went out for a meeting. Thought I would be fine since it was just a couple of hours, but goodness, Little A kept clinging to me like a little koala refusing to let me let go of her. I was stuck carrying her for almost 3 hours! :(
Recently she has found a liking to cling onto me in this position
Still clinging to me...
She refuses to let me put her down else she'll start wailing away

Don't wna keep giving in to her everytime she cries but I read somewhere online it's not good to let babies cry for too long? 
Any mummies reading this know what I should do?

Also, today was the last day of my 7 day Jamu massage and I'm really upset abt it. It has been the only time I get to relax throughout the day. I highly recommend my massage lady as she has never failed to make me feel at ease, and she is super experienced & affordable. She even bought gifts for Little A since it was my last day with her! How sweet! If anyone of you are interested in doing Jamu massage, feel free to drop me an email for her number! :)

Confinement week 2 with Little A

Sunday, January 12, 2014
Yes, yes, another post on Little A again... 

First picture of Little A & I together, with my dragonball z hair (It's not supposed to be this colour fyi!)

Little A is currently lying right beside me sleeping. It's like my whole life revolves around her now. If you follow me on twitter (@xoangeline) you'd already have seen that I tweeted "I always knew being a mum was hard. I just never knew it would be this tough" . Even with both my parents helping me with her, I still find it pretty hard to cope sometimes. 

Confinement hasn't really been easy on me becos I'm not used to drinking pig organs soup, pig's trotters and what not. Tbh, just thinking about it grosses me out. Heck, I'm not even allowed to drink cold water or any sort of cold drinks & I've always been drinking cold water for almost all my life. I also won't deny that my emotions have pretty much gone haywire. I blow up at the littlest things which really scares me after I've cooled down and think about them. I also realized I became super violent?! (Ha ha ha) ever since I was pregnant. 

Waking up every two hours hasn't been easy either and I hate it that I have to burden my parents, esp my dad, to wake up with me every two hours to wash the bottles & pump, feed her & change her diapers. As easy as it sounds, throughout the day both of us barely gets even 3 hours of sleep. Exhausting as it may be, I know it's gonna be worth it! :)

Little A has also been pretty cranky since yesterday. She's not usually like that so I'm actually pretty worried :( But her poopie & everything else seems fine? Anyone has any idea? 


"And I am feeling so small.
It was over my head
I know nothing at all.

And I will stumble and fall.
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl."

Welcome home, Little A

Sunday, January 5, 2014
Guess who's well & home?! 
What an awesome way fo' me to start the new year. 
You make me want to work harder than I've ever had, to give you the best I have to give.
Just slightly over a week old & you've brought me so much joy.
You make everything I've gone through so worth it.

Saturday, January 4, 2014

"Sometimes it scares me
how much I think about going out for a walk
and never coming home
how willing I am
to leave everything I have
and everyone I know"

Wednesday, January 1, 2014
But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down 
Your words in my head, knives in my heart