Confinement week 2 with Little A

Yes, yes, another post on Little A again... 

First picture of Little A & I together, with my dragonball z hair (It's not supposed to be this colour fyi!)

Little A is currently lying right beside me sleeping. It's like my whole life revolves around her now. If you follow me on twitter (@xoangeline) you'd already have seen that I tweeted "I always knew being a mum was hard. I just never knew it would be this tough" . Even with both my parents helping me with her, I still find it pretty hard to cope sometimes. 

Confinement hasn't really been easy on me becos I'm not used to drinking pig organs soup, pig's trotters and what not. Tbh, just thinking about it grosses me out. Heck, I'm not even allowed to drink cold water or any sort of cold drinks & I've always been drinking cold water for almost all my life. I also won't deny that my emotions have pretty much gone haywire. I blow up at the littlest things which really scares me after I've cooled down and think about them. I also realized I became super violent?! (Ha ha ha) ever since I was pregnant. 

Waking up every two hours hasn't been easy either and I hate it that I have to burden my parents, esp my dad, to wake up with me every two hours to wash the bottles & pump, feed her & change her diapers. As easy as it sounds, throughout the day both of us barely gets even 3 hours of sleep. Exhausting as it may be, I know it's gonna be worth it! :)

Little A has also been pretty cranky since yesterday. She's not usually like that so I'm actually pretty worried :( But her poopie & everything else seems fine? Anyone has any idea? 

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"And I am feeling so small.
It was over my head
I know nothing at all.

And I will stumble and fall.
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl."