Melancholy

Filled with overwhelming emotions, I can't seem to find a word to describe how I feel right now. Exhausted, definitely an under statement. Distressed, doesn't seem to quite fit it either. Lately my mind has been filled with a whirlwind of thoughts. Some sane, and some way too out of this world. 

I've never expected myself to land up in this situation. Back then, I thought I was the luckiest person alive. Sad to say, it goes as soon as it comes. Happiness never ever lasts. Fast forward, I've never felt so miserable my entire life. Mentally draining, sucking the life out of me bit by bit. 

Every single day passes so excrutiatingly slow. I can't seem to find joy or a peace of mind anywhere. It's like jail inside my very own head. I no longer know what I'm here for. The voices inside my head, they tell me to let go - run away, be free. I wish I could.

I always tell myself if I don't talk about my problems, maybe somehow they will cease to exist. But why do they seem like they're out to hunt me down this time round? Just let me go already.