G'bye 2014

2014 has been one of the best, yet worst year of my life.

I've never been through so much... ever. Never thought I'd have to go through the things I did.

But I am, thankful.

I've learnt and grown so much this year.

And up till now, it still seems so surreal that I am a mother.

Can you believe it, me? A momma? :)

It's like God deliberately put her into my life to tide me through all the times I thought... I just couldn't... hang on anymore.

This year, I've met so many people. 

Some good, some not so good. Some kind, and some not so. 

Some I grew close to, and some I grew apart from.

But I am, thankful.

For everyone that came and left, 

and for everyone that came and stayed.

Every single one of you has played such an important role in my life.

I might not be a very good friend, but I will never with my life hurt the people I love. 

(I did, once. And it was and still it my biggest regret up till today.)

I will never ever betray the people who mean something to me.

I may not be very nice with my words, at times, but I definetely never meant for it to hurt anyone.

Here's a quote I found online that somehow sums up all the people I want to thank:

"Thanks to those who hated me, you made me stronger.
Thanks to those who loved me, you made my heart grow fonder.
Thanks to those who cared, you made me feel important.
Thanks to those who entered my life, you made me who I am today.
Thanks to those who left, you showed me that nothing lasts forever.
Thanks to those who stayed, you showed me true friendship.
Thanks to those who listened, you made me feel like I was worth it."

I've gained some, lost some. 

But not all losses are a loss. 

This year, I also made the biggest mistake in my life.

A mistake that I thought would fill and fix all the mixing pieces of the puzzle together, but I was wrong.

It made me more vulnerable than ever.

But I am, thankful.

Thank you for showing me how naive I was, 

thank you for letting me stand up and fight by myself.

I never thought I'd be able to do it, but I did.

There are so many more things that happened this year that I will never be able to put into words. 

But I am, thankful.

Thankful for both the good and the bad.

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Next year, I am going to try my very best to live by The Paradoxical Commandments. 

You can read my previous post on it here: http://www.strawberrycoatedkisses.com/2014/12/the-paradoxical-commandments.html

Next year, I hope that I will grow to be a better, stronger and kinder person altogether.

Happy New Year's Eve, all! 

With love,

Angeline.

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