Alone

It's been awhile since I've had some time all to myself.

For the past couple of months, I've never really set down alone and thought about the things I wanted in life. All I wanted, was to ignore and run away from the problems I was/am facing. I didn't want to talk to anyone about it, let alone think about it.

I have always believed that if we don't talk about our problems, they will disappear and cease to exist. It has always been that way from me.

People always ask me why it was so easy for me to get over it. Fact is, it wasn't. It was hell for me, but I chose to ignore the fact that it hurt. It seemed easier that way. Everything seems easier when you just pretend it's not there, when you keep yourself busy.

I kept myself so busy I barely had anytime alone. I just didn't want to be.

Thing is, since I didn't think about it - The past few months are of those I have made the craziest and rashest decisions in my life. Maybe it's time for me to tone down and get back on track.

I will be back & I will be better. For Aary & fo' myself.

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